Where Have I Been?
For anyone who might be tracking my blog posts, you know I haven’t posted since September. Why you might ask. Is it because I had nothing to say? No opinions? (Yeah, like that will ever happen) Too busy? What?
Honestly, I was practicing the “If you don’t have anything nice to say, keep your mouth shut” policy. Rather than the Steel Magnolias line: “You know what they say, if you don’t have anything nice to say, come sit by me.” Which of course is more fun.
Over the last several months I found myself writing posts reacting to current events in the news or things in my life, blasting someone, and while I found it cathartic at the time, I also realized how negative I’d become.
Then one night I was reading and a quote by Mahatma Gandhi really hit home. “A man is but the product of his thoughts, what he thinks, he becomes.”
I realized I had become increasingly negative about everything, and increasingly unhappy in life.
Here was this answer to the question of why I’d been having such a hard time with depression. Why when I have so much, when others have so little, was I unhappy? It’s because I let negativity take over my life. I was depressing myself!
So I’ve been silent. Not just on this blog, but in life.
As I tend to be a loner, I curled inside myself, taking a long, hard look. And it isn’t pretty. Well I am, but my “soul” was not.
Through this process my humor (some might say sarcasm) has remained in tack. I think it’s what saved(s) me.
As Erma Bombeck once said: “ there is a thin line that separates laughter and pain, comedy and tragedy, humor and hurt.” How true that statement is. One only need think about Robin Williams.
That line can be very thin, and the process to thicken it long. The trick is not to thicken your thighs at the same time.